November 22, 2003

  • we buried her yesterday at All Souls.  she has a corner lot, next to a memorial bench, by water--it looks kind of like a reservoir--with trees on the other side.  it was really beautiful outside.  during the procession from Twin Chapels to Saint Catherine's, we drove down a tree-lined part of Tennessee Street and there was a breeze that made the golden leaves dance.  after the funeral mass, there was a layer of gold and orange leaves that was like a carpet laid out for her as they brought her casket into the hearse.  it was supposed to rain, but it didn't.  we all feel like she planned everything.  the beautiful day.  the coordination of green--when my mom was looking through her clothes, she just knew.  and then i found that picture 18x24 picture of her in her green dress and scarf, rolled up and waiting.  legaci singing "Mama" and "Thank You" and the one tag that read "The Legacy" when louie's mom bought the flowers.  louie's mom making the flower arrangements and louie having a frame for her picture.  claire being a candle bearer.  


    a part of me still doesn't believe that i won't be able to hug her or hold her hand.  that i won't see her in the kitchen cooking for us or be able to sit next to her and watch Lingo or That's my Baby on the television.  i guess that's how it always is.  no matter how much time you have to "prepare," when the time comes, you are never really ready.  i'm just thankful that God let us have her for as long as He did.