April 26, 2005
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STRAYING FROM THE FLOCK & ASKING TO BE RESCUED...
Ever since going to church stopped being a choice or a request and turned into a demand, I've found myself less and less motivated to go. The last two years of high school, I went to church pretty much every Sunday out of my own free will. When I started college, I started to slack, but I still felt the urge to go and would sometimes attend mass by myself. It hurts not to feel that connection and to feel resentment in its place. I know that it should not have mattered whether it was "We are going to church on Sunday." or "Would you like to come to church with us on Sunday?" but with each command, as opposed to interrogative, it felt less and less like I was going because I wanted to and more and more like I was kid being dragged there. It feels like part of me is missing, and I need to mend myself.
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i wish i could help you because i'm your friend and cuz i care...but i have yet to find spiritual peace within myself...just know that i'm always here for you. always.
I feel you. You should want to go really... It's not like you have to... but then you never know you might miss something there that speaks to ya, u know?
For some reason, it kinda makes me think of when people tell you to do something when you're already doing it.
Hi Crissy, How are you? I know that going to church might not feel right at times..maybe because you know there is something missing or you feel empty inside. Ive gone to church all my life since I was a child, and just recently last year I want to go every Sunday for a REASON. And that was just part of what changed my life...I would love to tell you my testimony. But I dont think all of it would fit in this page. Ive moved to over 7 churches to find which one fed my soul with the TRUTH. And the BIBLE is all we need to know if we're right with God. I read the Bible everyday to learn instruction and to remind me of God's grace that saved me from being the "flock that strayed away". I know exactly what you feel inside, Crystal. What I've noticed is that I offended our creator and who He is by not praying to Him and not being at Peace with Him and myself. It is very scary situation to know that when you die, where wil we go? Heaven or Hell? And there was a time in my life where I was selfish and wasnt centering God in my life but now it is good to know who saves us from that pit of lonliness and darkness..it is Christ our Lord. And I am proud to say He is worth knowing and glorifying. Please call me sometime and we'll share this topic. Take care. I'll pray for you Crystal and it's not because I think you're lost or anything but because I care for your life spiritually.
Hey Crystal, I would be very interested in you telling me a little about what you are doing. You can e-mail me at LBC1@umail.ucsb.edu. I have a few concerns, but I will share them with you once you e-mail me. Thank you for being so helpful!!! =)
hi crystal! can u email me ur home address? i want to invite u to my party on the 28th. cbelamide@netzero.net
Hey there love, what a thing to be faced with.....I was faced with that same problem about 7 years ago, i too had to make a decision.......Going to church should be your decision not something that is forced upon us or demanded from us!!!!! If things like our FREE WILL are taken away from us we learn to eventually hate the things that we know in our heart are right.....you are right it should be your CHOICE....The way that i decided was to work out on paper the fors and against and go from there, if i wanted to go,i would...if i didn't want to go, I wouldn't....don't let hate interfer with your love for god.......Take care
- Crazy language rules.....who wants to pay attention to them? hahah. Haven't seen you or your bf since Star's wedding. Hope you two are doing great! We should hang out...I'm in SF all the time =)
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