June 16, 2004
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sometimes i have dreams
about people that make me
feel really off.
like i can't look at them the same
and feel awkward talking to them
in the waking
for a while because even though
the dream was just that
it still feels really weird.
when i was in elementary school, i dreamt that my music teacher, mr. mikaido, tried to touch me. my fifth grade teacher, mr. samuel, walked in and helped/saved me and i cried in his arms. for a couple of weeks, i was uncomfortable around both teachers.
one dream in which louie cheated on me, he was with __________. the dream was so vivid and graphic and so emotionally draining that i woke up and cried. i couldn't look at ____________ the same for a while because she was one of those girls who you would expect guys to like and i felt extremely jealous. i also got mad at him--i guess i was projecting my anger at dream louie onto waking louie.
there was this guy i had a weird crush on. i say weird because he wasn't that attractive. i dreamt that he raped me. the crush was over after that. i couldn't talk to him for a long time.
i've had dreams about being with other guys. the funny thing is, in practically all of these dreams, i am also aware that i am still with louie, and i have to deal with the guilt and hurt that it causes dream louie. then i wake up feeling guilty and feeling weird being with louie because i feel bad.
Comments (4)
I had this funny one the other night.. I wonder if I should just blog it or write it all in here..
I guess I'll make an entry.
I agree. It is strange how they affect you even though they never really happened.
I hella feel you! My dreams always affect me even though I know they aren't real. I had a dream that Chris strangled me and he felt awful about it and was wiggin' out for a long time afterwards trying to interpret what it meant.
wait a week before i knew i was pregnant i had a dream of me giving birth.. it felt so real... so was that a sign? hehee..
I've had a repeated dream about experiencing a huge disaster beginning with a storm, then tornados, followed by a really violent flood. Both the same except in the last dream, I brought toby and snoopy inside the house. Even in dreams you have unresolved conflicts. For some reason I was really dissapointed when I woke up, because my dream was so exciting.
I really like this entry.
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